The Origins of my Songwriting
My songwriting is spurred by many of the tumultuous relationships I never had. I wrote these songs as a way of working out my feelings of not having tumultuous relationships. This was a very challenging time in my life. You see, while others were experiencing heartbreak, betrayal, and the intoxicating highs and devastating lows of love, I was left to endure a cruelly stable existence. No dramatic confrontations in the rain. No tear-streaked apologies on my voicemail. Not even an ambiguously sad Instagram post aimed at me. So, I had to imagine my pain. I would stare longingly at my reflection in café windows, as if reminiscing about the lover I never had. I'd practice wistful sighing on park benches, hoping a stranger might notice and assume I carried the weight of unspoken sorrow. I even tried leaving cryptic notes around my apartment—"We should talk" or "You know what you did"—to at least give myself the illusion of emotional turmoil. But my suffering remained ...